Michelle

Dear Michelle,

How have you been the last couple of years? We haven’t talked in a long time and honestly I don’t know if I want to anytime soon. I can still remember When we were best friends basically doing anything and everything together. At least that’s how I thought we were, that’s why I let you talk me into coming to St. Augustine. I guess that was kind of abrupt but really that’s something that has been bothering me since it happened. Why would you do it? Why would you even take the time to talk me into something when you yourself ended up changing your mind?

I didn’t want to come to St. Augustine for high school, I was completely set on going to Pierre Elliot Trudeau but then you spend all that time talking me into going with you. Then I go with you on that day to get the admission sheets and I still remember it. Goring to the school and getting our sheets, getting kicked out by Mr. Smith because apparently we weren’t supposed to be there. Then going back to your house and filling out our sheets and talking about all the things that we would do together in high school. Then a couple of days later getting our teachers to sign the application to recommend that we would be a good addition to the school, even going as far as going to buy our uniforms. We were so set up to go to school together and though I was nervous because almost everyone we knew was going to P.E.T I was going because you asked me to.

So can you even begin to understand how I felt when I come back from summer vacation in August and have you tell me that you transferred back to P.E.T? You know what made it worse? The way you avoided me, the way you weren’t even going to tell me, the fact that it took someone else to start the conversation before you would even fess up for what you did. So do you know how I felt? Let me give you a few suggestions betrayed, angry, confused, scared all these words can apply. But this is in no way supposed to be a hate letter (you don’t really believe me after all that do you? But seriously it isn’t). I guess it’s actually a thank you letter. Because of the decision you made me make, I’ve been able to figure out who my true friends are. Those people that I am still able to say in contact with even after ending up in different schools, and those people who I’ve never spoken to again. So really it was helpful or else I think I may have ended up depending on people who would have just abandoned me if I had gone to P.E.T.

I guess the bottom line is, I think I may always blame you and thing of a million “what if” situations about if I had decided to go to P.E.T. But I also have to thank you for showing me who was worth having in my life (sadly you didn’t end up being one of them) and it taught me what kind of friends I should be making now and in the future.

Sincerely,

Kathy Li